Progress!

So!  My last post was about me spending more quality time with my son, being more conscious around him when it comes to being on my phone & being more present mentally instead of spending so much time thinking about what i am going to do during nap time! Ya'll I have put my phone down!  And Facebook did not crash, Instagram is still full of pictures from people I don't know & Pinterest is still full of crap I'll never do or make!

My son has been kinder.  I know that probably sound weird for an almost 16 month old but its so true.  I realize that is because I wasn't paying attention to him so he would act out.  We have been going outside, playing catch, singing songs, dancing, going on adventures to the neighborhood pool, laughing so much and I have noticed that the more attention I give him the more he listens to me!

We even got out of the house this weekend & went to a birthday party and church!  It was amazing! This week we have several appointments so we will be busy with that and the pool again on Friday!  Oh & he said ball today! :) My mommy heart was so proud of him!

He also learned how to do this today...

Ciao for now!

Sam

On Being Mom

 I am not a perfect person.  I do not want to be a perfect person.  I do however want to be a good person.  I want to be a good mom. The kind of mom that when my kids are older they remember me being on the floor playing with them and reading to them and always making time for them.  I want to be the kind of mom that doesn't get so engaged in her phone & counting down the minutes until naptime so often that those times outweigh the ones where I am on the floor playing or even just interacting in anyway.

With that said I am realizing that the latter has slowly become me.  Over the last three months with pregnancy symptoms in full gear & fatigue being the most abundant I have become that mom.  I find myself getting upset with my 15 month old because he is getting into things he usually doesn't because I am lost in my phone.  He has come up to me on several occasions and swatted my phone out of my hand and my heart breaks as I realize what I am doing.  I am wasting away into Facebook, Pinterest & Instagram while I am counting down the minutes until nap time so I can be lost in these apps in peace & not have to look up every few minutes to make sure my son is not jumping off the top of the couch or chewing on electric cords and getting mad at him when he is.  Really??? Then the kicker is I find myself on these apps reading & liking articles that have to do with spending time with your children!  Jeeze am I a hypocrite!  I am grossed out by myself right now!

Please understand that I am not judging these mothers that do this I am simply talking about myself.  For me this behavior is unacceptable.  And I fully believe that sometimes a mom just needs to veg out for a bit.  I have just gone to the extreme in my vegging to the point where some days its all I do and I am seriously annoyed with having to care for my child.  I do not neglect him in his basic needs but I do not interact with him or I will give him the most convenient thing for lunch.

My point in writing this post is to hold myself accountable.  I am confessing my failures in hopes that I will be more interactive with my son.  I will get off the couch and off my phone while my son is awake & play with him.  I will take the time to make healthier meals for my family.  We will be more active together!

This blog is about me being better.  So I will do my best to be a better mom!  Maybe even posting here more regularly on how I am trying to do that! ;)

Cheers
Sam